6:30
am. Pour the cereal. Give a hard-to-wake child a gentle foot massage
to start the morning. Shout hooray out the back door for a wild
boy running touch downs. Strip the sheets, just like yesterday
and the day before. Start the wash. Change a diaper. Help the sleepy
child get dressed. Warm leftover beans and rice for lunch.
Correct the spelling on his last minute homework. Brush
tangled hair. Pour cinnamon in the oatmeal. Scramble to find all the
folders and misplaced homework. Tie the shoes. Read a Bible
story. Peel an orange. Referee an argument over the small
football. Make sure curious little ones stay in the driveway as
the trash truck arrives. Speak soothing words over the anxious
child, nervous about school. Look into their eyes and pray a
blessing over these little people fast becoming big people. Kisses.
Out the door.
Light
a candle. Find my favorite blanket. Ask the Lord to show
me his heart of love for me. I am empty, days spent far from
him. My heart has begun to doubt his Father's heart, which
often happens when I stray away from his word, from trust, from love,
from him. I read these words:
Now suppose
one of you fathers is asked by his son for a fish; he will not
give him a snake instead of a fish, will he? Or if he
is asked for an egg, he will not give him a scorpion, will he? If
you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children,
how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy
Spirit to those who ask Him?” Luke 11:11-13
It's
true. I am evil, a chief of sinners, my heart proving it over
and over. Yet somehow I know how to give good gifts to my
children. This morning I gave them food, attention, help,
guidance, prayers, cinnamon and a loud hooray, good gifts to meet
their needs.
How
much more will my Father in Heaven, who is NOT EVIL, but good, and
perfect, kind, and generous, give me a good gift, yes, the Holy
Spirit. As I meditated on why
the Holy Spirit is the good gift Jesus mentions here, I thought of
two scriptures:
And
this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God
loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts
with his love Romans 5:5
Because
you are his sons, God sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, the
Spirit who calls out, "Abba, Father." Galatians 4:6
The
good gift is the Spirit who sheds the Father's love in our hearts,
connects us to the Father, teaches us to call him Daddy. In giving
the Spirit he is giving us himself. And
this is the gift our souls need the most: CONNECTION WITH GOD
If
I who am evil can give provision and protection, cinnamon, and
discipline, how much more will he who is kind and
generous graciously give me Holy Spirit, yes give me himself!
I
blow out my candle. Take my last sip of tea, now cold from
these moments of quiet and head into the day. I've got a God who
gives good gifts, yes, the best gift. I am strengthened once
again to graciously dole out good gifts to my people.