Last year at Christmas, after all the gifts were opened, I had a shocking and embarassing reaction. I felt sad and disappointed and had this "is that all?" feeling. Now maybe this shouldn't be so shocking to me since I know in my heart that earthly things CANNOT satisfy my deepest longings but yet I so often look to them to do just that. They were never created to satisfy me fully...I am made to look to JC for that and he is more than able to abundantly fill my heart. So after last Christmas, I really began a process of thinking about the way Andy and I celebrate holidays. We have decided to TRY and get back to the real meaning of these celebrations. Now this does not mean there won't be a turkey at Thanksgiving and presents at Christmas or lots of christmas music and movies (which andy and I both love and have already started listening to) It's just that we want to "redeem the traditions" in our house. As Andy says, we want to inject meaning back into the fun things we alreay do in order to celebrate. Like, remembering WHY we decorate...whose arrival are we so excited about? We feel like so often we are just going through the motions during holidays and not really remembering the true meaning. We are currently working on a plan for Christmas, which may or may not include the old fat man. (this comes to the disappointment of most if not all in our family-sorry guys! Actually Aunt Marv is boycotting us because of this, hehe) But all in all we plan to continue many of our fun and meaningful family traditions and add some new ones too. (I have great memories of my mom getting our whole family to say things we were thankful for on Thanksgiving and remembering the pilgrim's story by making a cornicopia with her-mom those things were awesome! And I know Andy has several with his family that help him focus on the meaning behind the holiday too)
The main thing is that we want our hearts and our childrens hearts to long and love the Savior more through these sacred celebrations. That was there original intent. So, here is my FIRST attempt at injecting meaning into the "overstuff yourself and spend 26 dollars on making Kathy Huffman's mac and cheese" holiday we all know and love, Thanksgiving....it's a thanksgiving tree. Now, i must admit I really felt like I was stealing when I cut this branch off the tree in my complex...so maybe my attempts at redemption are only leading me down a darker road. hehe. But anyway, I got this idea out of a magazine. (not the stealing part just the idea for the tree) Every night at dinner (for the week leading up to thanksgiving and the day of) Andy and I write things we are thankful for on little paper leaves and then share them with each other, hang them and spend a little time thanking Dad for them. It's so good for the heart to remember all we have to be thankful for. So often all I can think of is all the stuff in my life I have to complain about. So here's to "redeeming tradition" from our culture and from my own heart that says, "this holiday is all about YOU, ERIN ASHLEY HUFFMAN"
When it's all said and done, I'll let you know what ended up making the tree!
PS....that 26 dollar mac and cheese is awesome...but unfortunately I added too much nutmeg and ruined it. I will leave the mac and cheese making to Kathy Huffman